Over the past few weeks I have come to a very daunting conclusion: my self esteem is shot. For some people this is how they are and how they live their lives, but for me I have always felt I had a strong self esteem and I was comfortable in this knowledge. Knowing I had a strong self image is a great thing unfortunately over the years this became less and less the case until recently I finally came to the realization that I no longer had as much self esteem as I used to or as I would like.
Had my life really changed that much? The answer to this question is probably longer than a single post but upon some recollection it seems that my self esteem started going down pretty much at the same time that my debt started going up. I don’t think that this is a coincidence! If you’re in debt struggling to make ends meet especially over a long period of time your personal self image and your self esteem are bound do get battered. I know mine did.
Being broke and knowing that you’re broke as a thought in the back of your mind definitely does not help. I have been speaking about myself in this situation because I know my story pretty well, but if you take a moment and watch the people around you do the people that you know are deep in debt hold themselves up as if they had a strong self esteem? My guess would be no they don’t. With the economy being on everyone’s mind you can almost see the people who are in debt sitting on the bus in mental self anguish.
The unfortunate thing about this scenario is that it is counter productive. If you’re in debt loosing your confidence is not going to help you get out of debt and if anything it’s going to make the situation worse.
Being that I’m currently in this situation I can’t give any constructive advice; I just know that I liked myself when I had self confidence, I moved around my world freely without doubt. I am going to reclaim this feeling, slowly if I have to. If you’ve been here before let me know your story, I’m sure the details are different but it would be good to hear how you got past the lack of self esteem and nagging self doubt.