When it comes to the end of the year a lot of people look back at the year that has happened and reflect. For many this doesn’t go past: “wow its new years again, where did the year go.” Personally I think this is a good time to stop and look back at your year, this is where you stop and look at the good and bad – this is the time to be impartial take the good as good and the bad as bad. There is no reason to see what could have been or what opportunities were missed and why. This just leads to dwelling on what might have been rather than on what was and learning from this.
My year was busy, it was both good and bad and there are a lot of places that different things could have happened but they didn’t and I can’t change any of that. This year really has been a journey for me and I believe that I have grown a lot in the year.
The good is really great in my opinion I got a chance to watch my daughter grow from an infant that barely recognized me as her father to being daddy’s little girl. She’s walking and learning to talk and you can clearly see her growing day by day both in height and size but also in cognitive ability. It’s amazing to watch this process; this little person is what has kept me going during some of the tough times throughout the year. Seeing her smile light up when I picked her up at the end of the day really made the trivial worries of the day go away.
The other good is that I have grown personally, I have started to recognize that I have a lot of potential and I can get moving into a direction (as part of this process I am aiming to find my passions) while this is a process that has started it is not one that has finished. I am still learning who I am now, not who I was when I was in high school or when I first started working. The reality is that we all change over time and in my case I hadn’t actually seen much of this change so the discovery process is educational, interesting and at times a bit frightening. Overall I am getting a much better sense of who I am right now and who and what I would like to be in the not to distant future. There is much more room for growth.
Other than these two things there was a lot of good, professionally and personally even though there were challenges – work has been really good and I have learnt a great deal. I made new friends and kept in touch with some close friends and I am glad I was able to do this.
There is rarely good without the bad. This year has been tough in many aspects: juggling work and everything required for the baby along with maintaining a healthy relationship with my friends, family and wife has been hard. It feels that I have been stretched very thin at times and the thing that has really suffered is the time that I used to spend for me. It feels that over the year there has been no time to recharge and the batteries have been running a bit on the low side. It feels like all of the items that need to be done compete with each other for my limited time and the net result is that I am not able to give as much attention to any one thing as I would like. While at the upper level this doesn’t sound like such a bad thing but it has at times frustrated me and made me feel very down to the point where I think I was bordering on being depressed.
Other than this there was a few other bad things that happened illnesses and lost jobs and friends that have become virtually lost. This is the stuff of life and I haven’t dwelled on any one of these item. I have simply tried making it through them keeping my head on its shoulders. Thankfully nothing really bad happened that I could not deal with.
The biggest bad thing from this year was the fact that there simply seemed to be too much to do and too little time to do it, everything seemed rushed and overly busy. I know that this is a common theme but it was one of the biggest downfalls from the past year, everything needed to be done right away and there didn’t seem to be much time for anything other than rushing around.
There was some stuff that was neither good nor bad it was just stuff that happened like my finances. they were maintained with some semblance of normality, there was neither serious growth nor loss and in many ways it seems that a lot of stuff just stayed status quo this year. In many ways this year has been the year of stabilization and work. At times this has come off like being in a rut but over the past few years there has been a lot of ups and downs so having a year of a lot of stability and sameness is not a bad thing.
Looking to the future
Along with taking stock of the year that just passed this is also the time for looking to the future and this year is no different for me. I have been thinking about all of the things that I would like to work on in the various facets of my life and the more I think about it the bigger the list gets! But if this last year is any indication there is simply not enough time to do everything especially all at once so the upcoming year will be the year of less in my view. My goals for the year will be fewer and smaller at least initially and if I manage to accomplish some of these goals I can get to the next items on the list. I’ll be posting about these in after the new year.
The year seems to have gone by in a flash and now its time to start another year and unlike this past year I do intend to make some changes, even if they’ll be small ones but I don’t intend to continue to repeat the same actions over and over expecting different results. I wish all of you a safe and happy new year!