2014 The Year that kicked my ass

This has been a really rough year for me. One that I didn’t expect in any way, but who expects to have a rough year? Wait, don’t answer that; I don’t want to know. I just know I ended up with one, but even through it there are silver linings to be grateful for.

Why was it a rough year?

At the end of the day its tied to one thing and one thing only; health. But as with most stories there is a lot more to it than that. We’ll start off with the fact that I was in the process of changing careers; getting my real estate license. Now this by itself is hard and challenging, mentally and emotionally, and it forces you to dig deep. It was interesting and challenging in all the right ways. Then things went south

In mid May, I had this wonderful life experience called a stroke! Life lined me up and gave me the fucking ass kicking of a lifetime. It’s hard to say if I was to blame because I was a smoker, or because I never went to the doctor. All that is irrelevant I survived, now its time to move forward. I’m sarcastic about it because in a weirdly odd way it was wonderful.

  • Wonderful because I survived
  • Wonderful because I got a second chance
  • Wonderful because I am recovering quite well
  • Wonderful because I appreciate life more
  • Wonderful because I got more time with my wife and daughter

I’m looking at it from a positive point of view but it doesn’t mean it wasn’t the biggest physical, mental and emotional ass kicking I’ve ever gotten (or ever want to receive). After the stroke getting back to some semblance of normality took months and even now I’m still working with my doctors to get my health truly in order. Slowly it’s coming together and will continue to do so.

As you can see from a health point of view it’s been a very rough year. I’ve spared everyone the nitty gritty details but suffice it to say I have struggled with some of it and it’s beaten me up at times. Mentally and emotionally there have been many ups and downs throughout the recovery and its made the career change go in a backwards fashion in some ways which has added to the challenge. But overall I am stronger for it.

It has definitely given me a new perspective on life. Remember those silver linings?

I have slowed down; life is not meant to be rushed. I routinely see people in a hurry to get where they are going and while its occasionally important most of the time it isn’t. You miss all the important details along the way rushing through life. Let me ask you a simple question: how many important life moments have you missed? How many dreams have you forgotten?

Life is about the journey and not the destination.

You only have so much time on this planet, you don’t want to die or get sick rushing around and working as hard as you can. Stop and spend time with your kids, your wife, your friends, your parents or whatever is important for you.

I’ve also learned a lot, not only about various interests and real estate but more importantly about myself. I’ve gotten a better understanding of what’s important to me and in many ways this just the beginning of the journey. While running around as hard and as fast I did I seem to have forgotten who I was; or maybe I’m different now. I’ve started to rediscover myself (luckily so far I like what I see) and this learning process will continue well into next year and likely beyond.

The end of 2014 has now passed and we’ve rolled into 2015, life’s slow forward progress continues and as it does changes continue. This year will be the year of recovery in a many ways.

2 thoughts on “2014 The Year that kicked my ass”

  1. Matt, glad to see your eyes are up, and looking forward. As you said, the good news is you are alive (I am glad to hear it too). Keep going forward, you are finding your pace, I am slowing mine down a bit as well (you are correct life is to be LIVED not WORKED).

    Here is hoping for a glorious 2015 for you.

  2. Thanks – finding that right pace takes time. It has to allow for living.

    Hope you have a great 2015 as well Big Cajun Man

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